I planned to go to Cape Coast with a couple friends on Thursday. I got up early in anticipation and left out at 6:20 am, thinking I would surely get to the bus station by 7:30. I walk to the Tro Tro station to find the line stretched damn near into the next neighbourhood. My first option of travel was out the window, so I began trying to get a taxi. The first one I stopped wanted 30 cedi to take me. I flagged down another and he simply refused to go so far during morning traffic. Its now 6:40 and I have to do something. All the cars passing by are full. Finally I hail a free driver and he agrees to take me for 14 cedi. Apparently the bus station is pretty far, I should have left earlier. We get going only to come to a complete halt about 2 miles down the road. 7am rolls around, now 7:15, still stuck. I call my friends. They have already made it to the station. I tell them where I am and we agree that I probably won’t make it. I ask driver to turn around and take me back.
After I get in and rest a bit, I begin considering taking the next bus at noon. My friends won’t be able to go with me so the real debate is whether I want to brave the journey alone. I reorganize myself and decide to give it another shot. I head out again and catch a Tro Tro easily since rush hour is over. I climb in the rickety old van, the seat slightly rocking from loose screws, the next row of seats begins where my knees end and I’m squished between two broad shouldered women. The journey begins to feel miserable. How can I travel like this? And when I get to my stop, how will know the bus station without the guidance of a friend? I give up and get out. I’ll have to do Cape Coast another time. Frustrated with the discomfort of Tro Tros, I decide to walk home. I figure it will be less trouble. My backpack is full with a weekend worth of stuff. The pavement is unrelenting, and dust from the side of the road is swirling around as cars zoom past. The sun, the smog, the heat. I start hearing my song Only Temporary echo in my head, as if an angel is singing it to me. I’m determined to keep going. A car pulls over and stops. I don’t notice it until the driver says, “Akua!” Its an acquaintance I met at my last show. What are the odds? The day couldn’t have been more difficult but it ended with a major blessing, at the perfect time. I climb in and ride home in cool AC and a comfy seat. When I text my girl Linda about my 2 failed attempts at going to Cape Coast, she writes back, if you still want to go, I’ll go with you.
I spend the night at Linda’s house, to ensure early arrival at the station. We wake at 4:30am and we’re out the door by 5:30. We reach the station intending to catch the 8am bus but find out there’s one leaving at 6, so we hop on. This is perfect, we won’t have to wait and we’ll make it out of town before traffic. The ride is smooth and the countryside is rustic bush, green and untamed. 2 hours later, the ocean appears on the horizon. We have arrived. Some friends from the States recommended a resort called One Africa Wellness Center, owned by a repatriated African American woman. We reach the place. The landscape is well manicured, the buildings boast of bright red, black and green colors. We are checked in by the owner’s son, whose thick Brooklyn accent feels familiar to me. He leads us to our chalet, a round little hut with a straw roof. We pass a great outdoor dining area and hammocks strung to trees. The ocean is footsteps away. The waves here are so strong, their continuous crashing onto the rocks sounds like rumbling thunder. Each chalet is named after a hero, ours is Queen Mother Moore, and pictures of her decorate the walls. We squeal with delight, drop our bags and head straight for the ocean view. The water looks like a deep blue blanket, stretched across the sea. Milk white frothy waves bubble over a cappuccino black stony shore. The sun still newly risen, looks on from the east. It is a technicolor fantasy, sensory seduction, absolute heaven to my spirit. We stand for a long time on the cliff overlooking this vision. It’s like a painting it’s so perfect.
Two older ladies from the States are also staying at the resort as well. We meet and instantly vibe with them, so we arrange to tour the slave castle together. We are like giddy girls in the cab, getting to know each other, chatting, finding similarities and sharing stories of our Ghanaian experience. Suddenly we pull up to the castle and stop. Guys selling tourist goods surround the car. Linda cautions me to keep my purse close, for pick pocketing is common here. We have a nice lunch and brace ourselves to enter the castle. We all take deep breaths and start walking into the enormous stone structure, solemn and serious.
The bricks are rigid beneath our feet, they lead down into a deep dungeon. We carefully descend into darkness, into an open room, where a small hole allows only one ray of light in. The tour guide tells a tale of distant traders who came and built this thing. They sought out easily persuaded chiefs with whom they could exchange guns and liquor for human beings. The scent is smoky, fleshy, bloody. We walk farther into another room, where hundreds of men were packed in. The tour guide points to a line on the wall, as high as his knee. He says the entire room was filled this high with fecal matter. People wading in their own waste, with no air or light, skin to skin, no room to move. I feel them. I feel the presence of so many hundreds of human beings. They were here in this place, so long ago, right where I stood. My chest tightens. Energy envelopes me, like arms around me. A heavy layer of pain and sorrow permeates every inch of my being. The guide leads us to the next room where there is an ancestral shrine. He mentions that traditional spirituality has been replaced by religion. I move to the shrine, as it is a familiar place for my method of spiritual practice, and fall to my knees. I weep at the feet of my ancestors, in the dust and clay of their remains. My tears falling where their blood spilled ages ago. I open my hands in surrender, and honor their passage through this place as a sacrifice for my own life. The Spirit was indescribably powerful. I mourn loudly, touch my head to the ground, fully prostrate before It. Again and again I submit and praise and cry. All my struggles as of late, pale in comparison to the holocaust of my people, and so I am humbled and grateful. I rise, unable to see, my face completely drenched. I leave a small offering and stagger into Linda’s arms.
We ascend to daylight and the comforting sound of water. Our older lady friends have now become surrogate aunties. One of them is a priestess and she suggests I take a moment, after all the energy I just encountered. I do and decide I’ll in fact sit out the rest of the tour. Once you’ve seen one dungeon, you get the idea. I let Linda tell me about the rest. She said the “cell for the defiant” was where she had to stop. This is where the most resistant African men were placed, 50 in a small room, and left until the last one died. The walls still have the their scratch marks. We are all raw and quiet. Introspectively looking out into the ocean, impacted in our own way from what we just saw. We slowly gather ourselves and give thanks but pray to leave the weight of the world behind. Shedding our burdens, we gently depart the place, reverently, respectfully. Forever changed.
Back at the resort, we cleanse from the experience and meet at the dining area. We have been bonded by the tour and are subsequently still enjoying each other. We order drinks and dinner, and get into great conversation. It’s a scene from How Stella Got Her Groove Back. Our aunties schooling us to life and men and womanhood. Our laughter carries on into the late night, as we kick back among the palm trees, the moonlight and the sweet rolling waves of the sea.